Chasing the dream

This saying is used so often when referring to chasing after what we think we want- money, fame, that perfect job, the perfect dress, but are any of us actually going after what we REALLY want? I think to answer that question we have to ask ourselves what it is exactly we truly want out of life. I can't answer for you, but I would like to be happy. And not just content with the way life is going, I mean completely and totally over-the-moon ecstatic about my life. And if I were to be totally honest, I wasn't.

In my quest towards this goal I've up and moved to England, if you're reading this, you probably already know that. How exactly is this going to make me happy? Truthfully, I'm not sure. I guess I expect that traveling to Europe alone completely reliant on my own instincts, thoughts, and wishes will make me a more independent individual which will then lead me to be more honest with myself.

That said, it's only been a week and it's already been quite a journey. Moving to another country (even one where you speak the language) is overwhelming. My electrical belongings DO NOT work here- I knew the outlets would be different- what I didn't know is that even with an adapter they still barely function. I'm lucky to work for a woman who doesn't mind sharing her hair straightener and phone charger. And don't even get me started on DRIViNG-- really Brits??? Parking on main roads taking up the whole lane is LEGAL? Curbs and street lights are non-existent? You have to cross oncoming traffic to turn RIGHT?? And dont even think about making a u-turn. Seriously. What the fuck are you people thinking?? Driving in a city youve never been to is hard enough, but when the roads make zero sense its total Insanity. Bloody rubbish.

Along with outlets and roads- the food is super random (baked beans mixed with mashed potatoes?? Wtf), military time is commonly used and confuses the crap out of me, you pay gas AFTER youve put it in your car (trusting eh?), and there is a strange saying for everything- can someone please explain to me how a phone is a "dog and bones"?

But even with all these changes, I love it here. So far everyone I've met has been helpful and welcoming- even if they've probably had a good laugh at my expense. The family I work for is generous and lovely and I can already feel a real sense of independence.

As I am writing this I am on a train into London to do some due diligence in what are said to be some of the best nightclubs in the world and I feel an overwhelming joy!! I feel excited and new and happier than I've been in a very long time.

Cheers! Xx